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Buddhadharma : Summer 2018
30 BUDDHADHARMA: THE PRACTITIONER’S QUARTERLY need to bother with what comes before and after, we don’t need to track any sequence—we are just totally absorbed in this one breath. Here again, as we realize this practice, the attention, the object, and the effort grow quieter still. Zhiyi explains: [S]ince the mind has become fine and subtle, it becomes peaceful, still, and free of any disorderliness. One becomes aware of the breath as now long, now short, as now pervading the body, as now coming in, and as now going out. The mind and the breath carry on in a state of mutual interdependence. The deliberations of the mind become tranquil and fixed in a state of stillness. And so here too, something naturally starts to seem loud. This time it’s the following that starts to feel a little obnoxious. Why am I working so hard at holding my attention to this thing—breath? Why not just sit here awhile? It starts to feel arbitrary that we would pick out this sensation—breath—from the totality of the body and the suchness of this vast moment. Why continue this effort to narrow the attention on breath, thereby stirring those waves in the mind? Why not just let ourselves fall deeper and deeper into this silence and stillness? Zhiyi says of this turn in the process that it’s like when you’re exhausted and want to go to sleep—the various efforts of your day are just no fun anymore. You are done. As with the relinquishment of counting, it’s not avoidance of anything, it’s just time to move on: “I’m done, goodnight!” So you stop. You let go, even of the following. pop! Before we go further along this path toward effortlessness, we might need a reality check. Around here somewhere, maybe as we settle into following, or attempt to relinquish following, our meditation may well go POP!—and not in a good way. We’ve fallen in a ditch by the roadside. What we hoped would be subtlety has degenerated into distraction and dispersion. It’s important that we notice this, brush ourselves off, and start over again. A minute ago, or five minutes ago, it might have felt like opposite | Inhale Hold Exhale, 2016